Like leaves falling off the old tree…
Words had always been easy for me. They come like a reliable friend in the middle of the night. Falling into places like perfect puzzle, words are something I take like a comforting breeze. It cools my head down when I feel mad or sad or even when there are times I don’t feel anything at all.
My mind is a messy place where I keep all of them. The deepest cliches I can ever think, the melancholy I wanted to created and the bliss… the kind of love I want to experience.
Words are everything to me…same as writing.
It can be the faint blush in my cheeks or the warmth I never experienced for awhile. It can be the song playing in the radio or the lyrics it came with. It can even be the look you gave me that one afternoon, the smile you flashed me the day before or the tears I kept the last time we met.
Writing is my way of expression.
About how I feel most of the time or just about the things that excites me. All the small details of the book in the shelf or the color of the sky during sunrise. More than anything, writing is a long inhale.
Its taking in air, it's like breathing to be exact.
When I sometimes do take my words for granted for they come as natural as the stars go up every night, writing is a different celestial object. Every time I get to be ask what writing is, my mind buffers. All the messy array of words I usually keep disappears like a bubble floating too long above my head.
But if I can pick one word from the fading in the tip of my pen, I’ll definitely pick breathing.
When things get too much, when the sky isn’t its beautiful orange color anymore, when the sun completely goes beyond the mountains, when I forget the lyrics I noted earlier on the day or just when I feel suffocated, lost or trapped and strangled by life in general… writing offers air, a breathe so I can take a pause, scribble all the anxiety, happiness, pain or just anything so I can keep going once again because every time the words come out, filling the blank paper like wires of thoughts… I feel new, fresh and ready..
I feel like alive and breathing.