Suddenly, life made me realize one thing. Life is indeed too short. Let that sink in.
When I was younger, I usually get invites for birthdays and fiestas. When I hit my mid twenties, I get invites for graduations and nuptials. Now, as I about to enter my thirties, I get notices for christening and burials. This is scary but it's the reality.
I am not sad being like this. I am already turning 30 this year but I am still unmarried with no kids. I haven't started building my own family and I think it's sweet. I am not in a hurry. I am just taking my time. I guess life is not really a race so I just have to enjoy the things that I loved the most because I'll never know when my time is going to end.
My family is rushing me to make babies. As if it's as simple as that. My sister pushes me to get married and settle down. I was joking about it. I told her that I don't plan on settling down, I plan to settle up.
I lost my dad two years ago. It was a fair game because he died at 71. It wasn't ideal to battle with illness for the last 7 years of his life but it was enough for me to show him every last drop of my love. I suffered the consequence of being a good daughter but there is no slights sign of regret in my vein. I am happy to have served him until his last breath.
I just attended another christening few days ago. I guess I'll be that drank aunt in someone's party moving forward. Yet after that grand event, I heard the news that my brother in law passed away. He was too young. His kids are just starting to learn. I honestly didn't know how to react. It wasn't nice at all. We weren't close but he was nice, if my memory serves right.
So, I told myself that I will enjoy my life until it lasts. I will do whatever shit that would make me happy because I am not really sure when that grim reaper will accompany me. I am unsure until when I can eat all the foods that I want to eat. Until when I can stay here on Earth.
So, I will find a new job. Job that will serve me right. Job that will give me time for myself. Let the money die. I am embracing my life in an entirely different colors. I will put some effort to satisfy myself because no one can make me happy but myself. And I want to die happily. I want to die with no regrets. Regrets of not doing the things that I should have done.
So, if you're reading this, think about it. Life is too short and you only live once. Who knows what's going to happen in the afterlife. Or maybe if you will be reincarnated, are you going to be the same human or you'll be an ant?
Let that sink in.