You might be asking, who is the reason for my smile, or what is the reason of my happiness, or why am I not sad just like before?
The answer is simple. I found happiness. I found happiness in the form of something that you might think is different. Well, that is her, she’s different.
I searched for a home through someone else, I asked for someone to accompany me. The days of finding someone who might be compatible with someone like me was frustrating and disappointing. I was about to give up on everything -- on finding someone -- but you came.
You found me. The only one who searched for a guy like me was you. You are there when no one is there for me. We talked about ending all of our misery together, and I was scared. But I still agreed, and when the time came when we will end it all, I got scared.
But you were still there.
And we did everything together, all the excitement and thrill I felt was because of you. You made me feel okay. You made me feel like I'm a normal person -- like a typical high school boy. The night I died was also the night I was born because that is when you came into my life. I saw the beauty of my state that night -- like I was really something. I really like your company but who are you?
You’re the darkness.
The woman thrown into the everlasting abyss of nothingness.
You were the one who saved me from the pits of loneliness.
And for a while, just for a short period of time, I felt true happiness.