you are wonderful

Did you ever experience to bullied by someone ? To have a little " self-confidence " ? To have a fat body ? To judge by the community ? To being heartbroken because of someone ? To have failures ?

I actually experience all of them, I experience to bullied by some persons before, the one who I trusted the most, they become my weakness. Everytime I'm going to school is very struggle for me, because I might see these persons. I also have a curvy nor fat body, so I have a little self-confidence. I cannot wear the clothes that I want, because I'm scared to be judge by the community, I lack my self-confidence because of this people. The people, who think that they're perfect persons who lived in this judgmental community of us. The people who will judge you the way you talk, the way you dressed up and for who you are. I also have a love of my life before, but he chooses to give up our relationship because of someone. And because of what he did, I have some failures in school, I also failed in some decisions in life. Days passed and these persons become my worst nightmares, my worst enemies, and become the real monsters in my life. I try to kill myself before, because of the harshness of life, but some of my friends and my family asked me," why would you do that ?" I answered, " I'm tired of being who am I. I'm scared to have another failures in life". And they answered me again, " Everyone is tired, but not being their selves. Is that a great solution for your problem ? No! Give yourself another chance, don't be so much affected for what are happens to you right now, we love you and we believe in you. " And after they said that my tears are starting to fall, why I didn't think of it before I'm starting to decide ? Why I didn't see that I have a lot of persons who I would love and trusted the most ? Who am I ? I really don't know who am I these past few months.

But after almost a year, I decided to be myself. To love myself first, before anyone else. To be who am I, to face every struggles in life, and not to give up on my dreams because of some persons. We need to accept the fact that, people come and go to our lives. We meet people for a reason, some of them are meant to give us a lessons and some are to stay by our side.