You said you would never

We may not be sisters by blood but we chose to be sisters by heart.

I knew you ever since and you knew me too from the start.

We do anything. From the tiniest to the silliest things we could think.

We tell each other everything. From the smallest jokes we can crack to the biggest secrets we hide.

Friendship shouldn't be easily broken just because of a boy isn't?

Everyone has their own first love. I have mine and you have yours.

How did it end up with you having my first love?

You even said it yourself, do you remember?

I remember you said, "i would never."

It was just yesterday when i was looking at him from a distance.

Now, i am looking at an entire different picture.

I am looking at him and you together.

I would not lie. It wasn't pleasing in the eyes.

It hurts my eyes. My stomach. My feelings. It hurts Me.

I am hurting
But you're smiling
So i hid under a petty smile

I did that to protect that curve in your lips. I do not want to see them fade even mine does no longer exists.

He is happy.
I wasn't
But then again,
You are happy.

I have every right to blame you with all the hurting i am feeling

What i dont understand is why i stayed silent

I could've said something

like, "i thought you would never?"

I guess i was afraid i can never accept your answer

so i never ask the question

Why do i have to pretend to be happy for you.
At the same time, why cant i be selfish for once and tell you,

"that one was suppose to be mine."

Rather all i said to you was, "That's great, i am so happy for you."

Maybe because, i chose you. I chose not to lose you.

Even i felt betrayed by all means with your flowery words "i would never"

When the first thing you did the next morning is to tell me, "We're finally together."

-P