You'll understand if you're broken.

I'm scared about losing people. I'm scared about people leaving me. Maybe that's why I don't let them in. Maybe that's why I just distance myself when they start becoming dear to me. Maybe that's why I've built these walls around me. Maybe that's why I'm scared of telling people I love them.

I'm scared that they'll break me. I'm scared that they'll tear me apart. I'm scared that they'll leave me all alone. I'm scared that they won't love me for who I am. I'm bloody scared and there's nothing I can do about it.

Help me. Please, help me. Please don't betray me. Please just hold on to me. I'm fragile. I'm broken already. I'm shattered already. I can't handle it anymore. I can't take it anymore. I can't. It's too difficult. I know you'll tear me apart. Please. Please just stay away from me. Please don't come close to me. I'm tired to pushing people away. It's better if you just stayed away. Please. I'm begging you. Please.