Dear diary, 6th March,2017 11:52 pm
My bestfriend, Nayra is getting hitched this friday. She is busy with the preparations. Ritvik, her fiancee is a refined man. What am I doing? I am in the event management team(smiles). I have known Nayra since class nursery. We have been neighbours for many years at Shivraj Colony. Be it notes or any teenage love life problem, she was the first one I used to call. I still remember when we were six years old, we used to ride our bicycles together and how can I forget those group studies during board exams. But everything changed, once we both went out for higher studies. Few minutes back, she was there with me and asking that what I am going to wear for her big day. I answered "something presentable" and then she got a call from Ritvik. So where was I, yes everything changed between us after the school. We had never called each other as besties verbally; indeed it was that mutual internal thing that our hearts felt. She got possessive about me and what I did....took her for granted. I had spoiled her placement party; instead of spending time with her, I went out with my so called friends , who are right now out of my life and I don't know where they all are!. She tried her level best to sustain the friendship. All this happened when we went out of city for higher studies. What I did....in the hope of making new friends I left my old bestie. Her constant nagging made me think that she was in love with me. When I told her about my thought, obviously we had a big row. Few years after, everything was fine between us. She was once again warm for her bestie and I also realised the fact that she was never in love with me in "that way". Now she is getting married; I should be happy right? But few months ago, I made a realisation that I had always loved her and she was the first and the last girl in my life. And yes loved in "that way". How can a man be happy, when his love is getting married to some other man....Behind my fake smile, there is a broken heart. All I want to say is that, I love you Nayra........
I hope that tomorrow will be a better day
Good night diary,
Vikram