For the first time in a long while
I stare at your face-
Studying every line and curve-
And I noticed how
Your eyes don't twinkle anymore
And it just broke my heart
That I couldn't save your smile.
So tell me...
What's going on inside your mind?
What dark thoughts are swirling around-
Poking your attention,
Wanting to be noticed-
Be stared at-
Be yielded to-
To consume you completely,
To overtake and leave you paralyzed,
To make you forget
That you exist?
What's going on inside your heart?
That slow beating that gets slower still...
What emotions have you bottled up-
What are you trying to conceal?
They're multiplying-
Increasing and exploding-
And you're bleeding...
But your tears won't fall,
You won't let your voice reach the heavens-
Nor the pits of hell-
The intensity of the pent up anger-
And sadness-
And emptiness-
Will make you crumble
Bit by bit,
Strand by strand,
Until you collapse and vanish-
Just like how sand castles are no more
After getting washed away by the raging waves of the sea.
Exhausted.
You are exhausted beyond measure,
Beyond what sleep can repair-
And I would have embraced you-
Know that I would have embraced you-
if I weren't you.