That 20 seconds could have saved me

That was the saddest 20 seconds I had to count down
Hoping you'll try the very least to keep me around
Before my inhibitions kill me as it turned one
Maybe your love wasn't bold enough to pull me back

I had to step three, four, five or some more backwards
Wondering why and how even it hurts that bad
Not a single tear to shed nor words would come out
As if it happened to pass my mind and grieve in advance at least once

Don't tell me I didn't fight for the love
Caught off guard, I was running out of blood
Before war I'd eventually lose outside this door
Demons in hollow chest been preying every saved hope

And I guess we'll start to recognize we failed
Pale, sick in sour stomach of the future we're to make
Anxious but not panicking, how was it even possible for me
All the battles I came from scarred down to this very last second of the white flag wave