2022

Dear 2022,

I was very delighted the way you started my life this year. You made my prince charming come at my doorstep and kiss me under mistletoe. You gave me a sand castle where I built my perfect world with him. You basically gave me a fairytale. My all prayers, my all years of waiting finally gave me the love I longed for so long. My one and only love. You saw us dancing in rain and kissing under moonlit sky. You saw us walking side by side holding hands and dreaming about horizon. It was all rainbow, until one day there were dark black clouds. 

You gave him opportunity to leave my city, you clouded our mind and heart to separate us physically. We did not realize how weird it was; to build a home only to abandon it. 

The day when he left, I was sad but I knew I will meet him again. I knew this separation was only for a short period of time and I would be united with him again.

It was September, I dreamt more about meeting him again while he waited for me patiently. He said he is going to play cricket, I wondered why I wanted to stop him - 'don't go. stay" I thought to myself that evening but could'nt say it to him. 

At later that night I called him, he didnt pick up. I thought he slept. I dropped my text - 'lob you' never knowing it will never be on read. 

I got unfortunate call hours later. His friend telling me that he got heart attack. My mind stopped working, my heart stopped beating, time stood still. 

How was it possible. I rushed to the airport. Almost boarding a flight to meet him. "He passed away."

"How can it all be real, no this cant be. wake up! wake up! its a nightmare" I heard my heart wailing in tears, I felt my soul crashing deep into the sea and my heart sinking. My time stopped that day. 

Dear 2022, I know what happened that cant be undone. But I'm sorry I am not thankful for having you. I hate you the most and may be that is why my heart will always be stuck in year 2022. With my prince, my heart died too.