I try not to look
Not to see the void
Not to feel the cold
Of the clawing emptiness
Of the space you used to fill.
I desperately look down
And clench my tired fists
And close my eyes tightly shut
To forget what once were
To ignore what now is.
I stare at what remains-
Those that chose to stay;
But in the corner of my eye
In the deepest dent in my heart
There your memories remain-
Whispering,
Nudging,
Aching,
Like a wound that needs healing,
Like a pain that needs wailing.
I want to let go
Of what would have been
Of our unrealized dream
But your ghost remains
Haunting me even in broad daylight.
So I walk away
Though the road seems blurry
I walk away-
Though the past calls me back
I walk away-
Without turning back
I walk away-
Not counting the steps
I walk away-
I will lose myself
And lose you-
And find myself
But never you.
My love,
Goodbye.