I Hate This Feeling

I hate that I still feel the way that I do
I hate feeling the pain done unto me by you
I hate the void swallowing me inside
I hate that because of you, I have a need to hide

I hate the fear that you left behind
Not knowing who to trust, always doubting my mind
I hate not knowing, ever so unsure
Because when you left, nothing stayed pure

I hate that now, I feel there's no hope
And that I've already run out of ways to cope
I hate this feeling of sadness and dread
And the paranoia screaming at the back of my head

And even after everything, you're the one I don't hate
I don't know if what happened was just a sick twist of fate
For I honestly thought that you would never leave
And now all I can do, ever since then was grieve