Little by little

Little by little I die daily
The colours,the flowers,the promises
Do not attract me any more.
I see the naivety in people
And wish to be like them
But I can't.

The sand castle I had built
Sitting by the seashore,
Has long been wept away
And what remains are pieces
Of lost hopes and shattered dreams.
Little by little I die daily.

The child in me needs to die
As Life wants to test me every now and then .
The corpses stacked up in my heart
Take me back to them ,
When my heart was still upright
And my Life still had the warmth of Love.

I am expected to be on my toes
To respond to every calls,
To open the doors with the same smiles,
To get treated like they want,
To carry out the errands without fail.
But I am failing and little by little ,I die.

I long to be carefree like the wild wind
And be the showers of the monsoon clouds.
I long to be that child again
Whose world will not be this rugged.
I long to be nonchalant yet again.
But alas I need to wake up ,
Wake up from the futile wishes
And show up daily with my mask on
As they don't like to see my scars
But want to be served with the Brightest Love.
Deep down I die daily and
Little by little I perish away.