A Memory To be Cherished

This was the beginning.

Before everything fades under the dark oceans of my mind,

I have to write this.

I have to write these feelings enclosed within my heart.

I have to convey what I wanted to say while we were still together.

I have to let it all out, at the same time.

The only regret of mine is that,

I didn't.

We were close yet too far. We were in the same room but none of us had spoken a word. None of us had shown deep interest with each other. None of us opened up.

When we first met, I didn't know you would be so important. I never knew we would hang out or even create a conversation. It was too fast, and at the same time, it was scary.

It was scary to know, that even for a short period of time, we were as close as we are now.

It was scary that we only have so little time left in our hands.

It was scary to know we had to let go.

It was scary to know we need to move on.

I didn't tried attaching myself to temporary people. I didn't tried creating small talks to improve the social meter to be more than acquaintances.

I didn't do it because I was scared.

I knew the truth.

That's why, as early as possible I tried not holding on.

But,

Why did I came to this life when I should had risked doing anything?

To step forward means to move on and to left the memories behind.

And I don't want that.

I want this to be remembered forever.

The experiences,

The laughters,

The profanities under our breaths,

The smiles etched on our faces,

And,

The tears that are about to be shed at any moment.

It hurts.

I know we cannot see each other again.

This comes only once.

I doubt there will be second chances,

But if I were given a chance,

To make things right,

I would.

I would run there,

Where you are standing,

I would be shouting a mouthful of thanks,

A bucket of tears flowing down on my cheeks,

I can only do this for once.

I will miss you.

I can make this to be a memory worth remembering forever.

Thank you.
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This is dedicated to the people who were with me during the summer job. I will miss you guys. *SOBS* Omg.  I can't believe it ended now. Thank you so much guys.(ಥ_ಥ) I love you guys and our wave team.