A Moment Indulgence

She is quite a mystery. I hope someday i'll understand her completely. Her actions and thoughts always conflicts. Few days prior to her birthday i was sitting with her. There was so much silence in air even i could hear my own heartbeat. It was a long time we faced each other. She asked me, why you called me ? Truly i didn't have answer. She turned her face towards me and said to me, Say whatever you wanna say i'm ready to listen. I was speechless. I wanted to say so many things but i was running out of words. I was just listening her. She says, you know this college is making me sick. In the end, the people i love or i'm attached to always leave me in middle of no-where. They change very quick. Then i looked at her and before saying a word, she said you didn't change i know.

Now, i look at those moments and asks myself. What did i do wrong that she left me in middle of nowhere. I was always there whenever she needed me. I know Love doesn't mean that we are always together, But i only ask for some happy moments and a little time of yours. Still your one smile brightens my day. I wish you would know that I love you more than I love my own soul.

Maybe one day when I am gone from this world you will understand the depth of my love for you. But I fear that day because your heart will be shattered into a million pieces when you realize that I love you to the core.