A time machine

It was the title of the song that has been played a few minutes ago in my radio. As it was played, a sudden smile with a sadness in my eyes was what I felt. I remembered persons that was once made me whole and complete.

But still,

                          they all left.

Unsatisfactory reasons. In understandable reasons. I never know. Why.

Most of them apologized. And of course I can never control the situation, the moment, and I can never control them. So I let them go. I let them. Cos it will make them happier than I do. Even though it hurts me knowing that I wasn't enough. That I'm not yet better. That there's someone out there better than me.

But some. I'd never given them the permission to leave me. I disagree when I felt that they'll too, will leave me. Bcos I can't. I can't let them go. I beg them not to leave, I beg them. But still, they'd chose to. They left me also like everyone does.

And there were moments where I still longed for them. They were still stuck in my mind. I wished I could have a time machine. A time machine. Yes, I know it isn't visible at all. But still I wished to. I wished that I can go back to that past. I wished I can bring back the things that were really were. Before. In the past. I want to make things right. I want to grab every chance to ask them on what's wrong with me. I want to know their reasons.
I'm still hurting. For years, the scar is still in me. And I know it will never leave. It will always leave a mark in me. And even though there were things that remind me of them, of those different people that left me, I knew that "Things never replace People." They never were.
But if I can't have a time machine to go back to the past, I'm still wishing that they'll go back. Someday. And if that ever happens, I'll hug them tight. And I'll tell them "You can always go back no matter what". Bcos they're still the same persons who we used to be with, before.
Yes, I knew, I've been so selfish. I'm so selfish of the persons that I don't even own. That's why, what happens, we must continue moving forward. And also, a time must come,wherein we'll gonna look back. And baby, don't ever worry, bcos it's the past. It is. Never stress out of those things so much. The things that bothers us so much will someday be tired and they'll soon leave;)

But still,

can you find me a time machine? Haha,.

I hope you're related in my situation.

Always remember,

" Things we loose have its way of coming back to us in the end if not always in the way we expect"

     :)