Abyssal

I'm drowning again..

Before you came I learnt how to swim this water. My tears has been dry. 

But when you came, you offer your hands and try to pull me up of this endless water that slowly drowning me.

At first I tried to refuse because I believe that I can get the shore with my own. Since I already know how to swim somehow...

But you keep on insisting that you are here, willing to give a helping hand to help me because you told me that you know that I'm tired of swimming alone for years. I doubt, but then again I just found myself giving my hands to you.

Everything seems so magical. I was gaining my hope again that I can escape the abyss. But when we are almost half of the water. I just realized that our hands is slowly slipping away.

But since we are under water. No matter how hard I tried to shout and hold on tight to you. You can't hear me, you did not look back. Because all of the time you thought that we can do this. That you are helping me.

Little do you know that I'm loosing my breath, that my legs are getting tired, that my voice is fading. I tried to keep my grasp to your hands. No matter how strong the current of the water. I keep steady and hoping you'll look back and give me your shoulder. But you did not.

My hands is slowly slipping. I'm almost out. I'm tired. Then even if you are there my vision to you is fading away. Then I realized I'm drowning again. It's not your fault. 

I was so ambitious to hope that I can get through this by accepting your offer on helping me. But my ambitiousness leads me to nothing.

And here I am again....

Drowning.....