To my Dad.

I don't know where to start.

Because it feels like we are almost at the finish line.

I don't know what to feel.

I feel empty and lost.

But I know that everything is slowly breaking apart and I don't know what to do.

People told us ever since to be ready any time because you have a heart decease. But no matter what we do, we will not be ready to let you go and accept that you are no longer with us.

July 20th is your grandson's birthday. You're not doing well that day, you're having a hard time to breath, walk, talk and even eat. But despite of everything  you felt, you didn't even think of bringing you to the hospital because you still want to celebrate with us.

 When the clock strike at midnight, that was the time you told us to bring you to the hospital.

What hurts the most is that, you're already having a hard time fighting your life but you haven't said anything just to be with us.

I never thought that would be the last time I can drive you to some place, sadly that is the hospital. I never thought that with a glimpse of an eye you will be taken away from us.

I'm not yet ready to let you go. I haven't had a chance to say sorry or tell you how much I love you. I wasn't able to have a small talks with you when you are at the hospital. The last time that I saw you, you are already incubated and brain dead. 

Dad, wherever you are I want you to know that we love you so much and we care for you. We will be having a hard time knowing that you're gone physically, mentally and financially. But don't worry to us anymore, you can go with your family at the paradise with an ease. We can do this and we know that you will be guiding us up there. 

I will not say goodbye to you because you will always be in my heart. Thank you for being the best dad, for spoiling me, for loving me, for protecting me, and for being my best duet at singing. I'll miss you Dy. 

Stay safe! Till we meet again great warrior! ♥️?