amazing years

I cannot write you all my years and all my memories in this few pages and hours that i have. Yes, i did have an amazing life and amazing memories and of course lots of regrets, but that is what life is all about. 

I cannot tell you that it was easy, because it wasn´t. Everything in this world seems to have a price, a seller and a buyer and you might wonder, how do you buy things? I can tell you one little secret that took over me 50 years of living to realise. All you need to buy anything, is will. 

Well i was 5 years old when my mother abandonned me. It wasn´t for sure the most amazing time of my life, but it was an eye-oppener and a new way for me to see that you can´t trust anyone and pretty much anything. I don´t think of it has an missfortune or an bad time of my life. I look at it, like an new opportunity, and that is what it was. My memory of beeing on a train stacion and seeing my mother running and fadding away seems pretty recent. It was cold and it was snowing, it felt almost like a dream. I was alone. It was dark and i was hungry. 

Then i met Kai, an 39 year old idiot who raised me and he was my savior and for that i will always be extremely gratefull. 

I remember he picking me up and asking me where my mother and father were. I told him i didn´t knew where my mother was and that my father had died.

He, somehow, was capable of loving me like i was his real daughter and that is quite impressive, in my opinion. I loved to eat chocolate cake and he always bought some, even when we were financialy in trouble. 

My childhood wasn´t easy, i had to give up a lot of things in order to survive. We moved 16 times and yet, each time was more painfull than the last one. But, anyway, i was still happy, he made me the happiest kid in the world and for that i have to thank him a lot (rest his soul in peace). 

I still remember when i was 15, comming home and feeling that something was wrong. I oppend the door and then i dropped on my knees. I looked into the dark hallway and i saw him, laying on the floor. His face was pale and seemed troubled. I could see in the conner of his eye a tear that runned freely down his face. He died of unknown reasons. 

I was 'abandonned' again and i felt pittifull and despicable. I always thought that he was murdered due to the fact that he was a terrible poker player and didn´t had any money. I had a 'hole' in my heart and it hurted a lot. 

I was at the police stacion and i was waiting for someone....i can´t remember who but there is one thing i couldn´t stop remembering.... I couldn´t stop remembering my mother leaving me and me... standing there....oblivious and i couldn´t stop remembering the face of Kira when he died and his tear felt like acid in my heart. Sometimes life is a bad joke and a horrible player, but, trust me she can play all the dirty games that she wants but you will always end up beatting her. 

So, continnuing, i was at the pollice stacion and then i raised my head and saw "him". Beeing dragged by 3 police officers. He was coffed and screamming. I could only think that he was a pathetic idiot. He seemed to be in the same age as me, probabely a bit older. But back then my mind didn't care about such things, i was horrified with what i saw that day.

But life goes on... and so it did. I went to school the next week and i was at my class having an boring chemestry lesson and then the teacher said:

-Students, tomorrow there will be a new student tranferring to our class.

I just thought that it would be horrible to have to deal with a someone new. In fact, now that i think about it, i was more terrified of letting anyone in and to be abandoned again than anything else.

I could only hear people whispering and gossiping about me. They would treat me like the poor little girl who lost everything and everyone. I didn´t care at all.

I didn´t have any friends. I was always an lonely wolf. My grades were average so i was always tranparent to everyone else, like i didn´t exist at all. I would always eat lunch alone at this garden next to my school, and i would also spend my 2 hour lunch break listening to depressing musics and reading romances. 

That day i couldn´t stop wondering who was the new student.

Just a small note

You are probabely wondering how did i manage to survive without Kai beeing there to provide for me? In fact hekind of had predicted this and he saved enought for me to live well for 3 years and i had a part time job at a local bakery so i was pretty well financially for the time beeing. 

The meeting

So, as always, i had been through the most boring lessons of my life and at lunch break i just went to same garden, and stayed there.... Just thinking about how messed up my head was. To my unpleasant suprise, i was not alone.

You see, the garden that i used to go had a big tree on its center and it had lots of colourfull flowers and an amazing vivid green grass covering the floor. 

While i was sitting on the floor, laining back on the tree i had the sensation that i was beeing watched. I turned my head up and i could see between the huge branches of the tree an intriguing and familiar eyes staring at me.

We made akward eye contact for about 15 seconds and it felt like he read my soul right away and i read his in a blink of an eye.

Furiously i said:

-What are you doing here?

-I was going to ask you the exact same thing.

He jumped and landed on the floor like it was nothing. The branch was about 6 meters in height. How was that even possible? He was skinny, tall and he had the same uniform has me but i had never seen him before. His eyes were a mix between blue, green and brown and he was sort of pale. I asked him:

- I have never seen you before here, who are you?

-I am sure tomorrow we well meet. Aren't you Violet?

-How ....do you know my name?- i asked him curiously 

-Well, you are not as transparent has you wish and think you are.

He started walking away but, on the middle he stoped, turned and told me:

-My name is Jackson... Call me Jack

-I don't think so

-Whatever...- We sighed and walked away 

I was almost sure he was the new idiot beeing transfeerd. I was really not in the mood of dealing with him. Only I went to that garden. I had been visiting it for years and i was pretty sure that i was the only one who knew about it´s existence.

I had found it in a very curious way.You know, when i first came to that school, i was very shy and felt relly left out. I wanted to find a place where no one could annoy me or even find me. So everyday i went looking for that perfect spot. When, one day, I was running  away from bullysin and i ended up running into the school's garden and i, by luck,found this hole that was dug and was big enough to fit one person. I was abble to lost them, but i knew it wouldn´t take too long before they went looking for me again, so , in a act of despair, i tried to get in there. Later i found out that it was actually a tunnel. The hole was covered with roots and leafes. It seemed that it was like that for many years. So i uncovered it and to went through that tunnel. It led me to this garden. It only had a tree on the middle and the flowers were pretty much dead. I knew that if i took care of it, that place would be amazing. I was right.

Moving on, I went home and on the middle of the way i had the same sensation that i was beeing observed. I started thinking i was beeing stalked. Could Kai have not paid everything and they are after me now? I was scared but i tried not to let anyone know.

Then i just heard someone saying:

-Hey, wait up.

I knew that deep thick voice. It was that kid from before. Was he stalking me? I stopped and turned. I saw someone running towards me, but it wasn´t him. It was this slender guy with blue eyes and long blond hair. He was wearing my school´s uniform. I didn´t know who he was so i continnued....I mean he probabely mistakened me for someone else. Then i heard it again:

-Comme on!! Could you please wait Violet? I can´t run that fast

I frooze in time. How did he knew my name? I gave him a chance and i stopped. He hurried up and was able to catch up with me. He looked exausted.

-Who are you?- I calmly asked him

-Are you serious? You don´t know who i am?-He said looking a bit mad.

- Are you from my class?

-Yes.... wow, you really don´t have any idea of who i am...Well, i might introduze myself. I have been you collegue for 2 years. I always sit 2 desks away from yours. I'm Ian, nice to meet you- He smiled

-Okay

-Okay? You are a hard one

-Well, you are wasting my time, and belive me.... My time is precious...So hurry up and spill it out.What do you want from me?

-Fine... well as you know there will be a new student arriving tomorrow...

-Yes, i am aware of it.

-Well, nobody in our class wants to introduce him to the school and we though that you would do an...

-No- I said, interrupting him

-I didn´t even finish it!

-You don´t need it. I won´t do it

-Geez....Fine

He left mad. I didn´t care about him. 

When i arrived home i could see some boxes on my neibourhood's house. I was sure that that house was abbandoned.I was wonderring who was moving in. And then i saw him again. Jackson was going to be my neibourgh. I felt like life had just punched me in the face and then slapped me 1000 times.

Unbreakable

I hurried up and open the door to my house and, once i got in, i locked it immediately. I think i forgot to meansion but that guy was the one that i saw at the pollice stacion. Back then i could only think that i could have a murderer living next to me or worst. I started wandering how the hell would he know about that garden, when i always cover it´s entrance. I started panicking but then I took a deep breath and moved on with my life. There was no reason for me to act like that...right?

So, like always, I did my homework and took a bath, had dinner and finally went to bed.

I looked trhough my window and i saw this amazing, filled with shinny stars, sky.

I couldn´t resist. I oppened my window and looked at the sky with a big smile on my face.

-You know, it´s really cold tonight...You should close that window for your own good...

I reccognised Jackson´s voice, but i couldn´t understand from where it was comming from. 

-Over here, right in front of you.

Then, right in front of my eyes this light lit and there he was, standing by the window.

-That sure is a new way of stalking

He laughted

-I have no interess in stalking you at all.

-How did you found out about the garden?

-I'm affraid i can´t awser that quite yet.

-But why?

-I already said no, sorry.

-Fine then! I have to go.

-Bye. And make sure you close that window...The last thing we want is for you to catch a cold.

-We? Since when did you care? You don't even know me.

-You can't just isolate yourself you know? You think nobody cares but that is not true!

-You sure are strange....Goodbye

I left and went to sleep. I didn´t close the window (Rebel me) 

Chapter Five

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The next chapter is comming soon. In the meanwhile please let me know what you think about it. Thank you so much for reading it. I hope you enjoyed it!