An open letter to my Ex- boyfriend.

Hi baby. I know you’re doing fine. I’m stalking your account since we broke up. Do you know how much I miss you? Do you know how hurt I am seeing you happy without me? I bet it’s a no because as everyone can see you’re surrounded a lot of girls. You’re too busy. I don’t know why I let you go. I don’t know why I gave up on you. Maybe I’m just tired chasing and waiting for you to see my existence and worth. Every night I’m praying that you’ll message me or you’ll call me but you didn’t. Hoping there is a message from you every morning. Yes you’re saying I love you but I can’t feel it. You even call me fuck girl for talking for someone. How? How can you break my heart easily? I am so dumb to believe for your promises.

“I’m so happy because I have everything.”

“ Everything?”

“You’re my everything , baby.”

Every time I remember those line I’m still crying.

“Baby...”

“Yes?”

“I love you.”

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“What are you doing baby?”

“ I don't have anything to do.”

“You have a lot to do.”

“Like what?”

“Love me.”

“ I’m loving you, I love you, I will forever love you.”

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I have no guts to talk to you right now because you’re not mine anymore. I have no right to love you. But baby I’m so messed up right now. Baby I still love you. Please come back. Baby please. I need you.

I know you don’t care about me anymore. I hope you read this. Because Lawrence, I still love you. I still want you. I’m so deeply in love with you.