An Unknown Mistake

I knew you were different
I knew that you were not the bad choices I had made in my life.
I thought it will be different with you.
Indeed it was different from the moment we started to talk. 
But,
I made an unknown mistake again.
The mistake I always make.
Maybe earlier it was the only thing to save me from destruction.
But, this time it's not my saviour.
It's destroying the bond we built by spending every second with each other.
I still remember the time when you were nervous to hold me.
I still remember that innocent smile which made me fall for you.
I remember every gesture you made just to make me comfortable. 
But i am not able to keep these feelings intact. 
Things are turning ugly with every passing day.
I can feel you are swaying away in every minute.
I can feel that in your voice.
That voice which is trying to hide something which will hurt me.
But trust my words this is not the girl you love. 
This is the girl who is scared to hold someone. 
She is scared to let you go but she can't hold you back. 
She loves you more than anyone else she has ever loved, but she will not say anything to you. 
Because
She will again become that weak naive girl who will not get that love back.
But,
These are just the gloomy days predicting a storm
The sunshine will come soon till then
just don't give up on her.