You stroke my face twice and tell me I'm beautiful and look away into the balcony
And all I can hear is your silence
An uncertainty as to when you'll take away your words and those suitcases and leave for the next flight while all along the ride to airport,my lips would inaudibly chant 'stay'
"Long distance doesn't work, I need you everytime with me", I think a million times in my head without you
but the moments we're too close I fear losing a part of me to you ,so I laugh at your all gestures always creating a distance.
I would sit across the bed and you would go out in the balcony to take a drag and all I do is sympathise with the smoke, because maybe one day you'll puff me out as well.
The moment you say "Your insecurities are invalid" I wish to point out millions of unseen bandages wrapped around my heart knowing well you don't want to cause one but I'm not open for another risk.
When you kiss my forehead before leaving ,I tell myself it's going to be over and it will be the last time I'll see you but it's not long enough for me to know that you won't when you send a picture of your jet lagged face as soon as you reach
And I immediately text you " I love you."
With a hidden ' when you're away' on my lips that you can't hear.
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