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Looking at him was my favorite thing to do and smiling without him noticing, those smiles are genuine, my love is pure. Just thinking that i love you so deep, that it cuts through me because everytime something happened i keep asking myself that maybe i wasn't good enough, maybe i'm not the person you truly wanted and god! It hurts like hell. You keep on telling me that i'm more than enough, that you love mo so much but why do i feel otherwise? I can't understand why it hurts like this, i can't understand why your words can't comfort or assure me that you are true. I gave everything and so do you, you're happy and so did i but why do i blame my self of not being enough? I believe in a saying that "a person won't feel like that in a relationship if your partner doesn't make you feel that way". I keep on erasing that in my mind because i don't want to doubt you that you are aware of lacking on something and didn't do anything to fix it. You keep asking me what's the problem and i keep on answering there's none because i really don't know how to explain how i feel because i know you won't understand or you'll just say again that i'm more than enough and how much you love me but damn it you are doing the otherwise. All i wanted to say is, it hurts, it hurts that i'm starting to question my own worth, it hurts that i feel shit, it hurts to think that i'm just another girl to you.