Breathtaking

       
I am seven years old, I'm positive with Anthropophobia (The fear of people. Being afraid of people in all situations). I don’t like people, I am inflamed with the world and I always wanted to be alone. I always feel uncomfortable every time I'm surrounded by a lot of people, I do not want to speak and I don’t want to talk to anyone. And yes, every time that I’m alone I feel so much chuffed. When my parents talk to me I just nod, I do not even talk to them, I'm always in the dark corner of my room in front of my computer and playing. I also do not want to go to school and have fun with other people because I’m not used to it and I can’t focus on what I am doing when I know that there’s someone around me.

I don’t want to go to school but my parents want, I don’t have any choices but to follow them. I did nothing but to cry over again before going to school and when I came home. I don’t  want to participate with my classmates and I don’t even listen to my teacher, I don’t like them all, I'm just in the corner and quietly watching them what they are doing. I always see students passing through in the pathway, eating happily with their friends and talking to each other with loud voices while me, I'm in a corner talking to myself and thinking about things. I still don’t understand why I’m studying and why do I need to go to school  if I can study at home and learn with my own. My parents did not agree with me because I don’t want to study but they even forced me to go to school. Sometimes they are watching over me, so I was more embarrassed to go to school because my classmates mocked at me. I’ve been also bullied for some time in school, Sometimes my classmates put insects inside my bag then when I open my bag insects fly all over my face and I can’t stop crying that time, My one classmate throw a ball and hit my eye with so much strength and I had a black eye, I almost look like a panda, Then my bastard classmates lock me in the Comfort Room and  poured out cold water but thank God the guard immediately came, I was like a molded ice coming out from the comfort room and lastly, They always ask me for money and get all my food, But me I just gave it up so I will not get hurt. Because of that I always try to convince my parents that I will stop studying but they just screamed at me and say nothing but “NO!” I'm still trying to beg and cry in front of them but they always answer me “NO!” So start then I didn’t talk to them because it seems like apparently going to school is a curse for me. Now, I'm graduating from elementary school but things happened over and over again, I’m always bullied by my classmates and my parents always angry with me. I don’t know what to do, I have nothing but myself.

It’s a new stage of my life, I'm in high school. New classmates, teachers, and people around me. But still I don’t want to study at all, but my parents are still trying to get me in, I told them that I will study at home in online but still they did not agree. I think about it for a long time if I will still study or not. In the whole vacation I just think about it and I made up my mind that I will still study and at this point I understand my parents why they want me to study and interact with other people, it because they want me to face and overcome my fears and my ailment that since I was young I’m facing it, I need to adjust and cope with my ailment. Everyday when I go to school I always have a smile on my face. Now, I’m talking to my classmate, I’m listening to my teacher and In fact, I already have friends they are Tiffany, Tracy, Vin, Mark and Samantha, I’m eating with them every recess and going home and I just realize that it feels good to have a friend to be with. I'm really happy because I also made my parents happy, I’m gradually changing and I become more confident with myself.

The bell rings, it’s time to go home and we go outside the room but suddenly,
Samantha: Wait, I forgot that we have to finish our project in English, we should pass it by tomorrow but Beauty we don’t have the same group.

Vin: It’s okay, we can finish it today
Mark: You should go home now Beauty, I think we will finish it in late night
Me: No it’s okay, do you want me to help you guys?
Samantha: We can do it, go home now
Me: Are you sure guys?
Vin: Yes, take care, goodbye
Me: Bye guys

I have to go so I left them already, while I’m walking out of the gate I suddenly remembered that I left my book in our classroom so I hurry up and I run very fast, As soon as I was in the front of our classroom I heard the loud laugh of my friends and made me stopped when they mentioned my name, I slowly walk and go to the back door and I listen to them.

Vin: Hahaha she’s not pretty anyway
Mark: You know guys I can’t endure her anymore and she does not belong to our group
Samantha: Yes you're correct Mark, Why do we need to make friends with her?
Vin: To make her our slave, make our assignments and do our projects, right?
Tracy: She thought that were really her friend's poor Beauty hahaha
Mark: Guys did you know that the other students are talking about her, they said she’s not talking to others when she’s elementary like she’s dumb
Tracy: Stupid Beauty hahaha
Tiffany: Hey guys stop it

And they laugh together while talking about me

I just see myself sitting on the floor when I hear what they're talking about and it’s all about me, So they're not really my friends? they laughed at me every time I’m not with them? I thought they are my true friends and they will help me to change, but I’m wrong they are just using me. Before they will see me I get up and walked away while my tears dripping from my eyes, when I get home I went straight to my room and I did not eat, I’m just thinking about what I hear a while ago, the words are running through my head and it’s like my heart will explode in anger to them. They are also the one that will destroy me and make my attitude back.

The next day it’s like nothing happened. I’m still with them going to school, eating when recess and going home, but it's different now when I’m with them I feel something wrong because of what they said about me. PE day today but we do not have much do so I just read a book then suddenly Samantha call my name.

Samantha: Beauty! Can you go with me in the Comfort Room please? because Tiffany left me
Me: Yeah sure, let's go!
Samantha: Thanks

While walking we talk about the Intramurals  because she will audition and she's asking me for a unique talent. We're entering the Comfort Room but before she goes inside the Cubicle she just look at her face in the mirror and put powder and lipstick I noticed that her color of her lipstick is beautiful so

Me: Samantha, can I use your lipstick its color is beautiful
Samantha: Yeah sure hold it first I will go to the cubicle
Me: I will wait for you outside

So after helping her we go back to our classroom, then suddenly I felt hungry so I tell Samantha that I will go to the canteen to eat. While walking I saw Vin alone eating inside, so I hurry up and order food, also order a soft drink for Vin.

Me: Is there's something wrong, Vin? Oh (then I grabbed him the soft drink)
Vin: Nothing, Thanks!
Me: Alright then, I'll go back to the classroom I need to do my project, See you later
( Then Vin wave at me)
While walking I saw the students running going to the gym, then I ask the one student
Me: Miss what's going on? why are the student running in the gym?
Anonymous: There’s a girl who collapses in the gym during the audition for intrams and then her mouth is spuming
Me: Okay, Thanks

So I decided to go to the gym to see what's happening there and I smile slightly when I saw Samantha lying on the floor. I saw Mark and Tracy running nearer to Samantha but Mark go beside me

Me: Oh water, It looks like you're tired of running
Mark: Yes, we run faster because of what we heard about Samantha, Who did this to her?
Me: I don't know

Then the Medic brings Samantha to the hospital but the Doctor said that she is dead on arrival and I feel sorry for her. While walking going back to our classroom with Mark we saw Vin walking towards to us and he is trembling in the whole body then he suddenly breaks down and lie on the floor, I and Mark run to him and help him

Mark: Hey bro, wake up what happened to you?
Me: Vin wake up, Help! help!
Mark: Let's go, bring him to the Clinic

We run faster as we can while carrying Vin, when we get to the clinic Vin is still not awake, then Mark put Vin to the bed then the nurse ask us what happened

Nurse: What happened to him?
Mark: I don't know, I don't have any idea, we just saw him trembling and lie on the floor
Nurse: Okay, I just make some test to him
(Then the nurse left us to check what happened to Vin)

Mark: What is happening to this school? First Samantha died, then now Vin? Who will be the next one to die?
Me: “You” (I said to myself) I don't know, it’s all unexpected
Mark: Hopefully nothing went wrong to Vin
After a few minutes the nurse come back and talk to us, she said that Vin was poison by food or drink
Nurse: You should call now the parents of the patient, I'm sorry to say he is dead.

Both of me and Mark was shocked, then suddenly Mark was punching the wall and crying, I was sitting on the floor there looking at him while hurting himself. But he stands up and runs away, I followed him but I did not reach him. I saw the students running to the front of the Main Building of the school. The students are screaming and it’s like they are scared then I saw Mark he is on the rooftop and it’s like he intends to suicide. I saw Tracy and Tiffany coming and it’s obvious they are shocked.

Tracy: Mark what do you think are you doing? Get out of there
Mark: He shouted “I would like to kill myself before someone will kill me like Samantha and Vin”
Tiffany: What are you talking about, get out of there, are you insane Mark?
Mark: You can’t stop me if I want to do with myself

The students are screaming and they are going out of their classroom. The other teachers try to convince Mark to stop what he is doing but as well as the teachers they unable to stop Mark, and unexpectedly Mark jumped from the rooftop and lost his life.
I walk towards Tiffany and Tracy who was crying while looking at Mark's body. I supported them to walk back to our classroom because they were both surprised and weakened by what they saw. Then Tracy called me

Tracy: Beauty can please help me to the locker room? I will just pick my things there
Me: Okay, let's go
Tracy: Do you want to go with us, Tiffany?
Tiffany: No, I'm fine here

And I help Tiffany to get her things in locker room, I assist her while walking because she's still crying

Me: Stop crying Tiffany, we can't do anything because it's already done

Tiffany: When I know who does that to Vin, Samantha, and Mark I will kill them too, I will make them pay
Me: (if you will know) I whisper
Tiffany: What did you say?
Me: Nothing, I said we're here, get your things I'll wait for you outside
Tiffany: Okay, then

I go outside the locker room and back to my classroom to get my bag until...

Tracy: Where's Tiffany? you are with her a while ago right?
Me: She says that she can do it alone and I go home first
Tracy: Okay then, I'll go home too. bye!

I wave to Tracy and I watch her walking away from me "you'll be the next" I said to myself and go home

Beauty help me, please! don't do this to me beautyyyyyyyyyy! (cries)
I wake up because of the noise that I heard, it's calling me and need my help, I thought its true but it's just a dream when I look at the clock, it's already late so I take a bath and fix myself.

While I'm walking entering the gate of school, the students are running and I follow them then there's a lot of students in front of locker room so I ask one of them what happened

Me: What's going on?
Anonymous: The guard saw a girl in the locker room and it's full of stab
Me: Did you know who is she?
Anonymous: Yes, her name is Tiffany from section 2B

I run away, I don't know what to do, I hide in the back of our classroom and cry. I don't know what to feel, I'm happy because I took revenge to them but a little bit conscience because I  killed my friends. The principal already know what happen to school and they think that there's a ghost so they bless the whole school and on that day is the last day that I went to school. I didn’t go in school the following days, I don't eat and go out in my room. There's nothing else in my mind except for the happened in the school that I'm the one who did it.

They thought that there's a ghost in the school but they don't know that I am the one who kills them all Hahaha. I turn into the point that I don't want anymore, I'm mad on what they do to me. They just use me for their own happiness so I plan to kill them one by one in different ways that I know they will pay in what they do to me. I will never go beside them, socialize and interact with others who make me back the old me.

All the things that I did are still fresh on my mind, I’m slowly walking now going to the rooftop of our house holding a sharp knife that will kill me, I’m always thinking about it that killing myself too and now this is the right time to say goodbye. I stab myself over and over again until I fall on the floor bloodily and weak, My eyes close slowly until i don't see anything except for darkness.