It was three months since we had last conversed with each other.I kept consoling myself that things will be better one day even though deep down I knew you were gone forever.Your odour lingered in my soul and your presence was pulsating within me always.I dreamt that you would walk back to me and like old times we would hold each other's hands and feel the universe within our hug.But days passed by and then weeks and then months.I kept waiting for one chance to look into your eyes and ask you -Why? But like the Rainbow you were ephemeral.
I still remember it was a silent night of May.I was kept awake by you and our happy memories and suddenly your name popped up on my screen. I jumped up in joy like the thirsty Traveller finding an oasis in the stretches of sand,you were mine. My heart suddenly started pumping a gallon and the rush of emotions within me was hard to tame like a wild horse. I tried hard to conceal everything and say hello. You kept quiet and so was I,then I felt your sobs slowly turning audible and we both knew we had a million galaxies of emotions crushing inside us.You asked me how have I been and do I still miss you. I felt I was winning you back again and the memories of our five blissful years flashed right in front of my eyes like a happy film.We talked for long and before hanging up I asked-'Now what?' To this you said-'Let's talk about it sometime later.'
The joy of listening to your voice,of feeling that tenderness for me was really beautiful. That night again you called me and that day I remember we talked a little more.You expressed your joy of your new job like a little kid and I still remember you expressed how lonely you kept feeling. I listened to you and tried every means to soothe you,to comfort you and like always tried to be your solace.You said you missed me and I remember how my joys knew no bounds when you came down to my city. I lied to everyone only for you.
I met you after 6 months, those misunderstandings,those stupid reasons you gave me for calling off our relationship faded like dew in a hot sunny morning. I wanted to make things right.The moment I saw you I remember I still had the same kind of inexplicable joy the one I had years back when I had first met you.You held my hand and I believed this time we will never have to fight for being together but we will.You made me feel special and lucky and kept telling me that every bond deserve a second chance.You wanted to make sure if I had taken my meals and kept a check that I felt comfortable around you. I felt I was dreaming a beautiful dream. I thanked destiny to give us another chance to ammend things.
Finally the day came when you had to leave my city and go.I felt heavy hearted but the hope to get United soon overpowered the gloom of separation. You bid me adieu and held my hand tightly maybe you wanted to feel me one last time before you were gone.After that we kept talking.You called me at the most wee hours but I was always ready to hear your voice and feel your presence.You had a new life and gradually you started getting used to the busy schedules of yours.Now whenever you called me you talked about projects and numbers and I had very little to contribute.The calls gave way to messages and soon the daily messages changed to weekly ones.Whenever I used to call you,you said you were busy.Now we talked once a month and sometimes if I hadn't called you up,it would be even more.
I kept consoling myself that you were busy,you had your own liabilities but I wondered was it too hard to take out a second for me.Whenever I asked you about us,you would very carefully avoid it advising me to move on. I wanted to but your messages,your concern,your calls were like a catalyst igniting my heart with the passion again.You told me it was hard for us to unite again as now I have nothing to contribute to the talks you deliver.I didn't know if your priorities changed or you.You didn't want to be bound to any responsibilities now and I kept wondering if you were the same man who saved his pocket money to buy me gift just to see me smile.If you were the same man who fought against every one who showed apprehension regarding our relationship.
I kept searching for answers and sometimes I felt my mind would just stop working. I wondered if I had ever known you or had I not known you ever. I wondered how easily you forgot about us,did those years mean nothing to do you or was I too emotional. I had no answers and now you too seldom answered my calls or responded to my messages. I too reduced the frequency of them in the apprehension of disturbing you.But I kept waiting for my answer.
Then one fine day Your status read 'In a Relationship with' someone who you found more mature and less emotional answered all my questions and calmed down all turmoil.I realized some people loved according to convenience and you were one of them....