There's perhaps a no better feeling than talking to your crush. The only thought that you might just have a chance with her for a relationship makes your day.
I am no different.
I consider myself one of the fortunate people, who are just lucky enough to experience this. And among the unlucky ones, for I am a mere boy who just does not possess the courage to confess his love to the girl of his dreams, fearing that he might just lose the "friendship", he has worked so hard to achieve.
I've known her for more than 5 years. I considered her just a friend. Truly. We used to meet daily for the first 2-3 years, but because of reasons, we stopped meeting after that. We could rarely meet . But less than one and a half years ago, i realised that I had feelings for my friend. But Alas! If I only had the courage or maturity to do anything about it!
She texted me about 15 days ago on Facebook, asking me about my exams. For her, it might just have been a simple conversation starter with her old friend, but for me it carried a whole new level of significance! The happiness that i felt from the only thought that I could talk to her after such a long time cannot be expressed into words. We texted for some time and she asked for my number, so we could use WhatsApp. "This could not be real!", I thought. It would have taken me a lifetime to ask her that! And to think that it was from the other end. So, obviously, i gave it to her without a second's delay on my part!
She was on a month long holiday in a foreign country, so she had plenty of free time. I, on the other hand....well it didn't matter, did it!?
We texted extensively for the next few days, ranging from all topics, from each other's hobbies, interests to our dreams and our wildest fears. We talked a few times on phone, but it was difficult. I guess for both of us. I was actually starting to think, that while I wanted the conversations to last forever and ever, she also might be interested in me, but I was never sure.
It has been the same ever since. Though we are more comfortable now, with talking about more personal things, and opening up to each other.
Until now, when she's bent upon asking me about the girl I love! Whether she know her? And I am here sitting here thinking whether she not knows it, or is she just doing this to get it out of my mouth. To speak the truth, that I have so fearfully waited to say!
To the girl of my dreams, to the girl I love!
With my heart beating and my hands trembling, I send this link to you, saying "I love you!" This is my confession. I'm waiting for your reply. I hope I deserve you, for I love you.
-Mehul