Dear Depression, please stay.

It has been three weeks already since you visited me. I thought you were leaving but, you stayed. You stayed as if you were so welcome in my life. I didn't want you to stay this long. But I didn't have the choice.

Here I am now, embracing the darkness that you're showing me.  Enjoying the pain and the agony. Tell me, am I worthy of this? All I wanted was happiness, not you. And, all you ever did was embrace me. You showed me your world. It was so dark, so cold, and so lonely.  Your world was so scary until I learned to embrace you.

I used to look for the light. But now, I chose to stay. I guess I will never ever be happy. I chose to stay in your dark, cold, lonely world. Why? It's because you embraced me. You accepted me when nobody else would. I just want to be appreciated; to let them feel my existence. Now, I just don't want them to know I exist. I wanted to cut myself. I wanted to escape reality. I wanted to be free from the pain. I wanted to stop crying when no one else can hear me.

Why do people come and go? Why do I always get left behind? Oh, it's because I'm not worthy. I am worthless. I am tired of making myself feel worthy. I just lost it all. I just want you to stay with me because you're all I have. You saw my worth. You stayed. I don't want to let you go anymore.