I honestly never thought i'd write something like this ever. but you, you made me do this, just like you made me eat gol gappas everytime you wanted to. I still don't like them, never did. the one who i liked, was you. I am angry. I am sad. I never got into relationships cause I was too scared to get my heartbroken, little did i know that friends can break hearts too. I asked for a reason, just a reason. I gave my all to you, everything I could, the reason I am hurt because i never connected to someone this much as i connected with you.
I simply complained about how after boards, the whole day you were online but never messaged me first, even when i did you answered halfheartedly, I simply as your "BEST FRIEND" complained how you started ignoring me. and you acted in a much mature way, sent me some terrible messages and blocked me. yelled at me when i came to see you after 10 days. when i was hospitalised, you weren't there. when i was crying, you weren't there. when i needed you the most, all i got was ignorance and hate. remember when you just burst out in tears when we were having a conversation on a phone call, I was there to console you. remember, how i treated you as my priority whenever you needed me. remember, how everyday i took 15 minutes extra and tool the long route just to drop you. I hope you remember. even if you don't, its okay. I am good with that. I am sorry if i sound as if i am accusing you, or blaming you.
thank you for your 2 years of getting me emotionally involved in your life, but let me clear few things before i end this note. I always shared the sad part of my story to you, maybe that's the reason why in your terrible messages you mentioned i don't have any friends. thank you for leaving me, cause when i got my heart broken, my friends whom i thought to be just my so called hang out buddies, they supported me like you never could, yelled at me for being so emotionally weak, helped me to get through my hard times, loved me in a way you never could, and never would. i have my bunch of weirdos with me, who love me in a way you never did and i have never been this happy with you.
I miss the person i was before meeting you, the happy kid, the little happy ball of silly jokes. Thank you for making me a stronger person. now i think hundred times before making new friends, yes you read it right. you know how gullible and friendly i am right, literally can be friends with anyone. but you my love, made me into this person, who is scared of finding a friend like you now.
bye, bye for forever. I miss those happy moments with you, but anyway, I know you don't even care and never did. just wanted to let you know, I am healing. I am recovering from the injuries you gave me. and just to clear your misconception, i am not alone :)
and and and let me just end this note now i guess, you never bothered to know how i feel didn't you? ahah. well well, i hope you don't do the same with the friends you used to bitch about with me, you claimed i don't have any friends, but you were the one back bitching about them, didn't you?
all the best. i know we were supposed to console each other, for our results ofc, you used to tell me about your each meal in a day, your dark secrets, your everyday routine, literally everything and look now i don't even know your result. ahaha, funny isn't it ? THANK YOU, a last thank you for introducing me to this harsh reality, people fake it. bye.
I still love you and miss you.