someone you loved.

you, you're my home. I remember the night you were dying to be with me, I guess the roles changed. we're only kids, why are we heartbroken now? these days, I don't even cry. these days, there's just this heaviness that doesn't go away.  I tried love for the first time, its funny, funny how just in few days, I'm ruined. you, ruined the hopeless romantic in me. you said you cared, when all i did was wait, and all you ever did was break, break my heart. 

sipping my coffee, the clock hits 3, I look at my wrist, why did i do that to myself? this is not me, I was never like this. the days when i didn't want to live anymore, the days where I wanted to give up, I was enough. I was enough to myself but then you came and just ruined it all. what did you get?its not even 3 now, Im writing this, its  8 in the morning, I knew, I knew my heart broke when these thoughts weren't only 3 am thoughts anymore. 

last night, you texted. though, I was dying to reply. I didn't. not gonna go back to what broke me.