Dear Life...

Dear Life,

It’s been so long and it felt like I should write to you. I had thought I would just send a text with a ‘hi’ and just leave the scene. But, I couldn’t do it and ended up writing this brief but intense note to you. Recently, I was so detached from you. I couldn’t seem to keep up with the terrible relationship that we were holding up. It had started taking up the form of a toxic existence. You didn’t listen to me anymore and you had started to overburden me with your sticks and stones and lies. I had retrieved to my shell and had started feeling unworthy. There were times when I wanted to leave you and just disappear. But, then I realized that I’m still in love with you and couldn’t just leave you.

I still remember when you had surprised me on my best days and how you had brought the best of moments just to wipe off my tears that wouldn’t stop flowing when I encountered the worst of my situations. So, yes…I still love you. But I want to know this… When you know I love you, why do you break my heart and make it heavy. I have been there for so long…praying for your well being to God everyday and this is what you give me. You give me lemons and I fail to make lemonade out of them. Instead, I fall on my knees and weep my heart out. And it is excruciating.Haven't you ever felt anything for me? Haven't i ever made your heart skip a beat? You never reciprocated... and kept on avoiding me.You left me as a piece of wet paper. I couldn't write anything on it, neither could I burn it.

Yet, I’m in love with you. I want to hold you close to my bosom. ‘Cause I know you’ll come around one day and I’ll be able to give the embrace I always wanted to give you. We would be so close and our heart would beat together as one and we could even have a love song together. And for years and years people would write and sing about us. And then, everything would be beautiful again. The starlight, the moon, the red color of roses, the white gowns and the smell of the rain… and our story could end with a lip lock and passionate hugs and embraces.

Lots of love in anticipation,

Me