Dear self, please read and re-read..

Once I fell hard for you. I fell truly, madly, deeply in love with you. You were not difficult to fall in love with. You're a natural. You showed me life and hope at the same time. You gave me the courage to uplift myself. But they say people fall in love temporarily. They say it feels good at first and then later you'll find yourself looking for more. You get fed up with the contentment that both of you have shared. It didn't happen to me first. It was you who sought for your own share of life, I wasn't in it anymore. It was you who wanted a break out of our relationship because you wanted to deal with yourself. I wasn't there anymore. I am a natural jealous. Girls are, especially if you’ve shown her the same treatment that you had for me before. It was painful. It wasn't easy. I wish I was everything you could ask for. I wish I was more than myself. It frustrated me to look at myself in the mirror thinking that this human being in front of me is not enough for you. I let myself down because all I want is to be enough. Then I realized..

People deserve happiness. People deserve so much more. I deserve love. I deserve someone better. I have to let go of it. If you can't bear with it, let it go. There's no point holding on anymore. There's no point agonizing for something that you can't do anything about. You can't feel bad to the miseries that happened. They happen because you're strong to handle it. You can be happy without them. You are beautiful and strong. Being free from worries can give you peace and optimism. Be wise and gentle. Set yourself free.