They call me different, i tried to understand how different i was but i never really saw it, so i gave up to the fact that i was different ! and i thought someday i'll meet someone who's different and we will have a different relationship and have a different kind of life and so i lived my different life.
First, high school went quit normal not as different as it was supposed to be but everything changes at college of course everything will be different and i will meet that different person somewhere ..somehow and sometime!!
i got accepted at college and i'm a fine arts student... i was never really good at art but that's what i was able to participate in because my grades wasn't really that perfect at high school ....
My first year at college and i have to prove myself ,,,, i have to be known and be .....different ! it took me sometime to get used to college students and professors and all those kind of people and i thought that they were different ..or maybe i'm different that's why i thought they were different! i guess i should cut on using the word "different" it's getting boring ...anyway i was really bad at this art thing and i wasn't really doing a good job at the beginning...so i had extra time to practice and work on myself, i don't like to be a loser ...i hate to fail at anything even if it was something that i suck at, i still need to do a good job ...i still need to prove myself! so i spent days going to a workshop i kept learning ..and learning ... until i felt good about myself ...until i felt like i belong to this college ...until i felt like a fine arts student !
The point is i was still called different ...but i wasn't that kind of different i was not the kind of girl that people would call weird or nerd or whatever ...i was good different .. when i went to college i saw different kinds of people ....people that i never thought that i would meet in my life...evil !! i met evil people and believe me when i say evil because i totally meant it ....i met all kinds of people, that's when i realized how different i was ,,,,i realized that i was too kind ...kinder than not telling someone they are doing a mistake or to say no to someone who needs help...i was too forgivable that i'd forgive you for saying something bad about me or for not helping when i do need the least help!! i was too crazy to stay out late to stay with a friend who just don't want to go home although it takes me two hours to get home while it takes her 30 min to get home...i was too stupid to think that any guy would deserve any sacrifice for they wouldn't do anything for you.. i was too dumb for not seeing the bad in people ..for not seeing the evil ...for letting them call ME different and not seeing that i was less than normal ...they just didn't want to feel bad about themselves for not being able to forgive or be kind or even crazy and stupid !! they made me feel bad but the second i realized all of it...i felt so good...i felt so proud to be me ! i know it took me too long to realize that.... i mean i'm 18 now but i think god always has the best for me ....
So, are you different?!! or do you just tell people how different they are.....!!!