Do I love myself?

I finally got certain of the answer after spending a few hours alone in my room thinking. I was asked if I love myself and my answer is no. It's because I couldn't help myself with my problems and instead of trying to solve it, I end up causing more problems or simply adding more by making myself worry about other people's problems which I shouldn't do because those aren't mine but I can't help it. I also have a lot of insecurities: when someone is better than me in a lot of things, I know I should accept my flaws but people finds them annoying. I shouldn't have tried self-harm or I should've stopped locking myself up in my room and go out, socialize with people more. I should've done something to stop myself from hurting and instead of staying locked up in the past, I should've accepted what came and what left, I should've moved on but I didn't let myself. I shouldn't have let myself be like this because right now I'm such a mess. I should've done better but I didn't.