Do You Realize?

Do you realize?
You have ingrained in you
The burning desire
To despise yourself.

You unconsciously
Destroy yourself
Doing all the crap
You shouldn't do
And not giving yourself
The time to breathe,
Saying you can,
Even when your entire self
Has protested countless of times,
Screaming for you
To stop-
To pause-
To feel every inch of you
Trembling,
Benumbing,
Dying.

You do realize.

You just don't care anymore.