Chae Young Shin is walking in her garden and is thinking :
Ahhh..For how long have I been struggling??..Not much has changed over the years in my life. I really tried hard to turn things better in my life but to my surprise, things have really not changed as I wanted them to. Were my efforts not enough??? Or was I too complacent??? Or was it meant to be this way?? Aish ..too many questions in my head..to which I don't have any answer. Waeyo??? Life is a complicated journey??? I haven't yet got a significant achievement in my life. I don't know for how long do I have to wait for it??? Will I ever be able to achieve atleast one??? Sometimes, I am really scared of those thoughts which once frightened me to the extent that I almost lost myself.
All of a sudden her foot got hit to a small pebble. She looks down , then looks at the sky and says to herself :
Ahhhhh....Chae Young Shin...What is wrong with you?? What the heck are you thinking??? Are you simply trying to move towards that pitfall in which once you were trapped??? How can you get such depressing thoughts in your head?? Ahhhh..Waeyo?? Can't you just not stop thinking about it?
I know Chae Young Shin..You have been through tough times. You have been in a situation where you totally lost hope but this doesn't mean that you keep reminding yourself of that bitter time. Is it always essential to hurt yourself?? Aniyo..It shouldn't be.
Look, Chae Young Shin..It is 'LIFE". It is always unpredictable and mystic in it's nature. It always unravels different aspects/ lessons in front of people in many different ways. Change is constant in life though most of the times it is slow in nature. You can't expect the wounds to be healed soon. It is a long process and with time( In most cases) it gets better. It is just that ..everyday one needs to take a step forward to overcome it. Chae Young Shin ..you are healed then why do you have to remind yourself of those weak moments??
If you really want to remember something..memorize your strength, courage, hope and trust(in yourself and in the almighty) that actually helped you. Learn to " cherish yourself a little for not giving up in all those weak moments."You silly, don't be too harsh on yourself. Instead, reward yourself for your inner strength, hope and trust that doesn't let you fall weak in weak moments . Appreciate your qualities. Learn to live a bit for yourself and be happy by doing things that you have always wanted to do. Pamper yourself a bit for your qualities.Make yourself feel good. Learn to be kind and gentle to yourself. You need to understand that it is not a one time process..Infact it should be in exercise everytime..whenever you feel low.
Chae Young Shin..relax..Life definitely has something good for you. You will achieve what you want to..may be slowly.I know one should be ambitious and not complacent in one's life in order to live a successful life but along with significant achievement it is equally important to "Live Life". Cherishing yourself for your qualities and for not giving up in tough moments is one healthy way to "Live" a complicated journey called "Life." So, cherish yourself as long as you are here. This will not only improve you as a person but also will help you move towards your achievement.
After making herself understand this important concept she smiled and said..Ahh..I am such a good "self motivator"..I should go in and cook something tasty for me so that I can quickly come back here enjoy the nice weather along with my tasty food.
#lets get prosing.