end too soon

Haven't been me for awhile

showing fake smiles 

became a habit of mine

writing to release sadness

letting go ache me

having the thought of it will last

the spell that you cast

thoughts stirring my head

here I am writing 

here I am sighing

here I am aching

but there you are enjoying

decided not to bother you 

hope that can I do

foreseen it will end like this

mistake is not his. 

been here for 20 years

couldn't count my tears

have two eyes to see 

blind heart that I obeyed

give me 5 days 

and I'll be okay