escapist

what if you are allowed to escape in every situation when you are afraid, losing, feeling hurt,  stabbed,  alone, lonely, finding yourself?

most of the time i was wondering what if i do this, i do that,  going there by myself not asking for anyone's permission, trusting my instincts, will i regret it?

have you ever thought of going somewhere just to take a deep breath, relax your mind and free your soul from all the negativity and loneliness the city put you in? me? yes. i am craving for new air, new people,  new activities,  new learnings,  new environment.

i want to go somewhere where i can find myself. i want to know who i am, the real me,  without minding that someone i know would see.

but i am afraid..afraid that i might not want what i would have discovered. afraid that i might not be accepted for who i am. afraid that the people i love would turn their backs. but i guess that's the time i will know if they really love me. accepting who really am and the changes while i'm growing. maybe you just have to find the right people who would have the same vibe as you.

people always say, "face the reality". i know, it's better to live reality than the fantasies running inside my head.

but if i would be given a chance to escape? i would.