...remind me

yesterday was black and white like all of the colors of my life faded..
and it feels like my soul shattered.
everything seems so unbelievable and i thought it was a nightmare i wanted to wake up.
i thought things were going well and i expected it to be all fine.

but one day i woke up,
didn't thought that it will be the last time ill be seeing you and your pain,
you and your hardships,
you and your sacrifices,
you and your smile,
you and your voice,
you and my only you.
maybe you now enjoy your new life.
maybe you still miss us and i really hope and assumes that you do.
maybe you are now safer.
maybe you are now in your real home.

i just hope you know you were the most wonderful man ive ever met.  you are my shelter and my home. And you, you will always be the first man of my heart. you never left my mind everyday & night and that still reminds me of pain and loneliness.
it still reminds me of you being gone every day.
it still reminds me that my soul is missing some part.
it still reminds me that i, will never see you again.

but papa please remind me that you're still there,  around, watching and guiding us.
please remind me that you are now good up there. please remind me that you are already happy..
please.. even just in my dreams, remind me.