Dear R.
We've been talking for years. I did'nt expect us to be close like this. I went to Manila to study and when we're far from each other, we realized we have this strong connection. I felt like after moving to the city there are people who will really miss me. I am special. I felt that.
Before the last month of this year came, you were able to tell me how you feel. You like me. You are even willing to give up your happiness if that is what I need to be happy. Little did you know that my happiness is being kept by you.
And before this year end, I told you how I feel. I asked for many reasons and signs before I did that. I even told myself it's time be sweet to you for I've been hurting you for so long. You deserve to be happy. You deserve to be loved. We both do.
I thought telling you that we feel the same to each other will give us happy ever after.
But I was wrong. Our story is another failed love story.
What happened?
I don't know. I am still looking for reason to stay. But as usual, you can not give me one. I wait for your sorry after that fight but I did not receive anything.
I thought saying I like you is enough for us to end up happy. But I was wrong.
You were just like them. Say you don't want to lose me but did'nt do anything to make me stay.
And it hurts me.
Because we were better before we became true to ourselves.
How can an almost perfect love story end up being a failed one?
And now we are slowly losing each other. How can this be love? Or we were wrong when we think we are really in love?
If it is not love, you can have my good bye. If it's something you can now fight for, hold my hand.
-A