Falling Alone

I swear I had never ever wanted to fall,

I didn't have worries if it won't happen at all,

But one day, a man who's dark, lean, and tall,

Came to my life like my wake-up call.

The first time I saw him I recognized,

The man of my dreams, now came to life,

Watching him walking the same hall as I,

Thought I was dreaming, I couldn't blink an eye.

Did not know his name, not anything about him,

Seeing him was enough, I didn’t bother asking.

Every time I saw him, my pulse rate was raising,

Butterflies in my stomach, felt like they’re dancing.

Then one day there he was, looking back at me,

Sitting next to me, starting conversations with me,

I can't remember how, I couldn't figure why,

It felt like I was dreaming, but reality made me sigh.

I memorized his face, recorded his voice in my head,

Pictures of him in my mind, I kissed before I go to bed.

I found deeper meanings on simple phrases he’d said,

Searched deeper feelings with all the messages he’d sent.

But all those times we had spent together,

All those conversations we have had in that corner,

His lovely expressions that I could study forever,

I wish it is not, but it is all gone and over.

But during the time, I was truly happy,

Before I recognized the fact: it's temporary,

Those days were warm, even the nights felt sunny,

But after all that, my days were all gloomy.

It sucks to admit even just to myself,

Falling in love was something I could not help.

If I were a book, he won’t pick me from a shelf,

So what can I do, but keep this all to myself.