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I am out of focus, things didn't happen to the way I expect it to be.

It doesn't even reach half of my expectations.

I feel so broke. It feels like am going to explode anytime.

That feeling when you did your best but it's not enough.

I don't want to find out what's gonna happen next, because it's obvious.

It's so obvious and I don't want it.

Running from here, walking away, leaving the reality is how I wish now.

It hurts. It really does.

I am so tired of it. 

I've been wearing this mask of happiness for so long and am not gonna take this off until someone noticed.

I bet no one would. What should I do?

I am so good at it, at faking my emotions to not bother anyone.

I'm not the only one having bullshits so I knew it.

The good thing is I am still hoping to be okay.

What's the purpose of being here if I'm going to surrender.

The hopeless person writing right now was so great to feel hope.

It's hard to find that hope for someone like me but now I'm holding into it.

Am not brave but I want to try something new.

Something different from smiling with pain and laughing with doubts.

I already feel worse and I'm so eager to get out of it. 

Maybe this is the only thing I am excited.

To get out from here, to do some plot twist.

I would love to smile again with all  my heart.

I bet no one would take off the mask for me, and so I would take it off for myself.