First

He is your first love, your first kiss, your first best friend and, and your first heartbreak. When you love for the first time, you don't know what is happening to you. You just feel something, something that is love. When you see him, you feel happy. When you talk to him, you feel blessed. And when you are with him, you feel perfect. You two become best friends. You both talk day and night. You get to know him and then you love even more. And then suddenly everything changes. His way of talking, his way of seeing you, his way of holding your hands, his way of kissing you. And that is when you realise that you guys have parted. Even when you love him, you know that he doesn't. So there is no point in maintaining even friendship.
You miss your first kiss. The way he grabbed your waist tightly, and kissed you. And you miss that perfect moment. Moment which is in the past, and will never come again. You keep missing those special memories he gave to you. Your first hug, your first kiss. Every night you wish to have him again. Every second you pray to god, hoping that he will surely give you your happiness back. And when you realise that he will never come back, you just stop praying. You just stop wishing. But then, he becomes your unspoken wish. A wish that can't be expressed in words. A wish which is in those tears you wipe every night. A wish which is in every smile you fake. A wish, that he will come.
And this wish, is only because you still love him. When you will stop loving him, he will no longer be your wish. But for you, its really hard to move on. Even though you have become a better person now, you are afraid of hurting the one you love, or you will love.
You want to move on, but you can't because you still love him. And you tell yourself that one day, you will surely move on. Untill then, you will love him. After all, he was, is and will always be,your first love.