First love feelings ??

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You know how they keep saying, "First love never dies"?
Well, maybe , i guess i still have some feelings or fleeting ones for her. It is kinda difficult to kill it.
I just had a dream and she was in it, the person I wanted her to be....liking me.
And yes, totally liking me for real but it's a dream.
Though in my dream, I remember how I feel for the physical person I currently love, that i do love for real, and it is not unrequited now.
I was thinking of parallel and another universe, or other universes or worlds, or whatever those are.
Maybe in one of those, my first love in this universe and me are together. I don't know what life we would be living now in that.
But i remember how I love her, then for over five years, I loved her and gave up. Found someone else and fell in love again. I had some passing feelings for others but never really stayed.
I can make myself in love at someone but i can't fool myself for-ever.
But this 'now' I know, I fell in love again... Though to another person.
First love! How are you?
I want to ask. I couldn't stalk you on social media as you are not active much on any of the sites.
Sighs!!!!
Why were you even in my dreams, anyway?
I never thought of you in past years yet you just pop up in and hang out in my dream.
I can't kill that first love feeling, anyway it's just a fleeting random thing...
Uhm, maybe!
Though, it's like a punch to me or something... I really want to be loyal to this current person, I am with, to this current person , i love.
In another lifetime and universe... Maybe each one of us can be with someone you can't be in this current one...