To the man I know, called girl,
I'm being too loud now. I know it may boost your confidence which scares me, really. But, then, I want you to listen between the lines. Keep this in mind, let your heart remember how I speak this directly to your soul.
First of all, you are annoying and I hate you most of the time
Secondly, you are not attractive, not handsome
Third, You are exhausting to love and understand
Clap your hands for me because I'm still here for you no matter what
You do have habits I can't take
You are so clueless of how to treat a lady
You are insensitive all the time, for your information
Your jokes are corny and you are so irritating like my menstruation
Get me wrong not, I'm not telling things bad
because unlike you, I'm harder to love
People are leaving me because they don't understand
Grateful I am in my deepest heart, it is you, I surely have
You knew not how to comfort, but I am warmth
You are not that cool, but you never left me behind
You are not extraordinary, but plainest flavor is all I need
You don't know how it means to me that is why you think you're nothing to me
To be honest, you are the best among all the best friends I have
I'm still figuring on how and why no words can really describe
How I've been into you and this friendship we have
We're not vocal of this but we mutually know, we commit to staying here til we're old
Old enough to tell people our stories and adventures
Old enough and totally used on being annoyed by each other
Old enough to lose count of our fights and make ups had been done
Old enough to say we made it, we have kept it safe, the friendship we once started out
Telling you stories and my feelings became some kind of addicting
You are like my life's library, and when someone asked about me, you can answer directly
I am reminded that you remember everything I share
That is why you know, whenever I lie or manipulating what I say
I am like a train that hit your station
Every day with you feels like home
You have made friends with a poet, shouldn't be surprised
How I talked stuff, about you, this and such
This is to inform you, my girl, my friend
I have planned to be your girl for a lifetime and another
Even live for the same flaws to have the same fate
Even live for the same pain if it will take me in your way
You had made me sure of you
You've told me, You'll stay, you will do
Even I'm crazy and get crazier, even I get tied screaming in the white room
You'd stay by the door and will still be the one girl I once hold onto
One time, in a camp, we were asked to hug our treasured friends
You immediately hugged your guy friends and had searched me in the crowd
You managed to find me and smiled at me, hugging is not our thing, so we don't
But, you stay by my side awkwardly telling my heart, I'll stay even in the most the uncomfortable moment we may have
One time, I asked you because I've been hurt, "am I not to be loved?"
You all of a sudden scolded me and had gone mad
"You are to be loved and be protected more than I do."
You said and warned me not to doubt myself because you don't
One time, or many times, I should say,
I call out unto you in the latest of night
Just to disturb your good deep sleep
and try hard to piss you off with all my might
I promised to piss you off my whole life
I promised to make fights and argue from time to time
Because that is my way of saying I'll stay, like you, I'll stay
Won't give up on you, like, you hadn't given up on my worst me back those days
My way of saying came to be disturbing
We don't do sweet talks, making things easier is not our thing
We don't touch, we don't hug and probably we will not go dating
Because we both know what we have now, we have everything
I once told you, we are girlfriends, unlike others, we don't expire
we are girlfriends, we don't break, we don't get tired of each other
I mean it because I will not get another one exactly as you
And I'm pretty sure, you'll not get another same as me, too. hahaha
With all the love,
girl