No matter what, I hope you remain strong. Even when you can't. Even when it's so hard to put up a smile. Even when you don't have anyone by your side.
No matter what, please be okay. Things may not go as you want it to be but God's plans are always better. You told everyone to trust Him so you should, too.
I know you want to help everyone who needs to be saved. Maybe that's why you tried to help her that night. But you can't help everyone. You can't save everyone. You can't save anyone from falling if you're also in the verge of falling. Save yourself first. I beg you.
You'll find your home soon. And I hope you know that home is a feeling. It could be something or somewhere or even someone. I hope you won't get tired of waiting or searching for it. And next time, I hope that you won't have to hide who you really are because I swear to God, you will be loved truly.