We had so many goodbyes. There were those which are said just for the sake of saying. Some were to bid partings. Some meant "see you again," others meant "goodbye forever". Some made us sad and others broke our hearts. But all of them were said to keep you away from me.
In spite of the countless goodbyes, you and i were real. We were real. Our love wasn't easy. Nor it was perfect. But it was real. Anyone who knows us can testify to that. Unfortunately, at some point, we had to say goodbye.
We can say that it didn't work out. That we tried to fight for it but things went out of our hands and that's it. We just had to end it. We can say that neither of us wanted it. That life left us with no choice. We can think of many excuses to cover up the truth. But we can never lie to ourselves. That you and I got tired of each other. That we destroyed our best parts and brought out the worst ones. That we refused to try and fix whatever was left of us. That we decided to throw everything all at once -- the love, the pain, the memories we've made. That after the long run, it's just you, and just me. We held on to each other's hand so tight but yours slipped out of mine before I even notice. We embraced each other so bad that I got broken and bruised in your arms. You forgot how fragile I was.
We can convince the world that fate didn't side with us this time, but not ourselves. We both know we gave up on the test of fate. We were given questions but we chose to left it unanswered. I got tired of begging you for the things I should've not begged for in the first place -- time, attention and most especially, the truth. I asked you a lot of times and all thsi time, I thought you never answered. It just took me a long time to realize that your long list of excuses were answers to my endless wondering. It took me a really long time to convince myself that if you wanted to see me, you would. That if you wanted to talk to me, you would. That if you wanted to make me happy, you would. And I'm sorry if it took a long time for me to see that I am the only one who needs to let go. I'm sorry it took so long before I set you free.
This will be the last, I promise you.I won't go running back to you again like I always did. I won't go begging you to complete me, no, never again. I'll be my own hero. And the next time I will love again, I won't feel robbed for not getting the love I gave in return, I won't be empty. The next time someone decides to leave me, I'll get hurt but I won't be broken, it'll rain a lot but I won't feel lost anymore. I will be stronger for my own sake. So if we ever cross paths again, I hope you won't have to love the same sad girl, take care of the same broken heart and heal the same wounds from her past. If we ever meet again and find love in each other, I hope that we never have to say goodbye anymore.