Things changed between us and we both know that. We used to be each other's first person we run to when we are happy or in pain.
Things changed but it's okay.
You've changed but I promise you, it's okay. I already told you that as long as that change is for you, will make you a better you, it's more than okay.
So the first thing I want to tell you is stop worrying about what others think of you. Because you live your life for you and they, or should I say we, don't have a say in your life. Your life, your decisions, your choices. What they think of you will fade in time. What they say about you will be forgotten by others. So don't let negative comments or people affect you.
Second, you are more than worth it. I know you already know that. I just hope that you don't let others, especially the ones you love, make you forget that. You are more than worth it of anything and nothing can change that.
Third, you are beautiful. Those guys didn't like you the same way you liked them for a reason. We don't know it for now but there is a reason. Maybe God wants you to experience all your firsts with the right guy. So save your self-confidence before it runs out. Love yourself first before others will. Trust me, you will need your own love.
Fourth, if he treats you like trash, forget about him. It's not easy but it's not that hard either. You don't deserve to belittled. Any guy who doesn't know how to feel lucky to be liked by someone like you is (idk the right term) but I'll forever feel bad for him. If he doesn't feel the same way, he should at least know how to be thankful.
That's all I can say that you might want to hear. But here's my real message for you.
The fact that we can never be bestfriends the way I want us to be is breaking my heart. But now, I'm already okay. As long as I'm one of your trusted friends, I will be okay. As long as we get to spend quality time together, I will be okay. You're still one of my greatest God-given gifts to me. I still feel lucky for having you as a friend. I still feel lucky for meeting my soulmate. The slap of reality from you will forever be my favorite and it's also a need. Thanks for all those times. Thank you for everything. Let's forever be friends, okay? Sorry if this is a little late but happy happy birthday to you. Don't forget that I will always be here for you. I just hope that all the pain you've felt taught you a lesson and prepared you for the life that a 17-year old girl will experience. I will always love you.