Forgiven

    Day 7th of May – He left me a message. 

      Containing all of the guilt he wanted to tell me a few months ago. 

       He’s asking for one thing. That one thing that keeps on bothering 

    his conscience – he’s sorry. For everything he had done and regretted

        every single mistake he did. Tears shed from my eyes again, that I 

    promise  myself not to feel the same pain he caused me, but I still did.

    I cried for the pain he kept on reminding me in my chest. It’s been ten 

     months when he  disappeared and finally said the word on that day. 

   I felt like a thorn plucked from my chest for a very long time. I don’t even 

         want to write this but I’m relieved. After all the nights of longing, 

     I understand myself even better now. I learned how to forgive people, 

acknowledge my pain, and live my life. It may just a passing memory now, 

  but I guess that’s just how living my life works. I refuse to harden myself to 

 stones because I think I will escape from myself. Acceptance may take time 

         and memories may be painful, still, forgiveness freed my heart.