GUILTY-NOT GUILTY

I guess il just have to live with it

The guilt of me.. blocking

I guess what i did was wrong, isnt it?!

Giving him no space coming back. walking

I guess i shouldn't even think of him

And definetly not complaining...."why the hell he didn't...?!"

He didnt spare some time

He didnt share some dine

He didnt care to send some smile

At last i dared.. and said its all fine

Its all fine.

I won't ask you to meet me

I wont ask you to feast with me

I wont ask you to sing for me

I wont ask you to anything against your will

But then remember this

I wont be myself

I wont be free

All what il do... will be what you want.. me to do

Ive still not deleted that break up text..

Because somewhere it gives me strength

Because somewhere it speaks for me

Because somewhere i was being me

Because somewhere i was being me

I could understand that if i don't value myself now

I might never be able to value myself in the years coming by

Why should i be a "lone" in these lonely nights

Why should i be the person who ends up crying after fights

Why should i be thd person who ends up eating all the junk bites

Why... when i know im still trying to be a happy person even when things aren't exactly right..

I know you wanted some time

I know you wanted me to be patient

I know you wanted me to adjust

I know what all you wanted me to do

But you must know...

I was giving you some time, when for hours i didn't disturb you...

Those hours im counting because every moment i was thinking about you..

Turns out that was my fault!

I was being patient.. when without any texts whole day i used to wait for your one message...

despite knowing you were posting your passion online..

Because i didnt want you to think im being an over-obsessive being around you

I was adjusting when after long day work.. you didn't feel like talking much to me..

I was scared that my adjusting nature...will one day pull us apart

I tried.. really tried ...to doo all the things which you wanted me to do...

But sometimes.. some times are meant to happen..

Sometimes some times just get unnecessarily entangled

One just needs to be careful: Guilty-Not Guilty