I don't want to end things in a bad note. No.
The bitterness I've felt when you left me for good, devoured my whole heart. Your words slapped me back to reality when you said that everything was just for fun. You stood away from me when I confessed my love for you. You devastated me and I could never forget the sound of my heart breaking that caused my tears to stream down. I got on my knees, feeling so helpless.
It took me months to realize that it was over. It took me long sleepless nights to realize that it was only a one-sided love. It took days without getting off the bed to state what was obvious. I couldn't accept it or I refuse to do so. It was tough for me but there's still one thing that I realized, I was never furious to you.
I hate how my heart is so forgiving. Even if I have felt so horrible with the past months, I still can't fathom the idea of having a grudge, to someone you dearly loved. I didn't want things to get bitter. I just want to let him know that even if he has damaged a part of me, I will still be there when he needs me. It may sound so pathetic to anyone but to me, it was a wise decision.
I want him to look at me and realize all his wrong doings. I want him to realize on his own how terrible the idea of hurting someone so carelessly could change their whole perspective of love. But not me, my perspective never changed and so does my love. However, the kind of love I feel isn't the same love I felt when we were together. It was a genuine love, a love that isn't selfish and is willing to let go. It was like being his guardian from afar and hope things for him will soon be settled.
Letting go is not always sad. There's more to happiness in those words than the painful ones. It may hurt to think of letting his presence and entire being go. But it also warms your heart when you let go of him because you wanted him to taste a kind of freedom away from you, experience a different kind of happiness, learning and growing up from his own mistakes, and then being settled with the kind of life he decides. It is like helping someone grow and mature without actually being involved. Revenge and blocking each other's accounts is too cliche. Instead, be positive with whoever may go, for someone better will come along. I let someone I love go but for me, it is still a happily ever after.